wounded

 

 

So wow, hes back. It seems like forever since i was on this thing, now its not that I dont love you all but rather that i didnt have anything to say and didnt thingk that the lot i had to say wasw reaad worthy. Now that im working im slightly more interesting but still its really just the polite ramblings of a little black boy.

 

So im going to take this like I take any problem: in steps. I dont know any other way but to break this all up into catagories. So without further shit talking lets get into the mix.

work with pay

well if you recall i was working with a buddy of mine. He got me a job when noone else was hiring. Fuck the recession and everything about it. but moving on, I found out that it wasnt the job for me. Its not like I dont appreciate the guesture but the whole chillin in a cubical talking to strangers about a life that I dont have quite yet was depressing to say the least, so a little after my first paycheque, I skipped town and went back to one of my older more trusted jobs, Delta bingo, It was like an old girlfriend waiting to see you again after years and still treating you well,

the only problem I had with it at first was the new establishment trying to force its ways on me, like the new supervisor trying to train me when I had already learned the same things she was showing me and not only that, I had learned them better. That took some getting used to, especially when I found out that she was only about 8 months older than me. But that came to an end quickly and from there the relationship became amazing again, the same old ladies , the same funny smell, and the same hillarious stories of deceit and betrayl, its better than a telenovella.

Relationships

Ok so we all know how the last one end…TERRIBLY. for a while there I was convinced that I was spoiled for women, I didnt want anything to do with them, not to say that I was gay but i just thought that I would be better off putting all of my time and energy into something that couldnt break my heart, the age old addage that nice guys finished last couldnt have been more truthful when it came to my case.

After much prodding by a friend of mine, I decided to try the online route for love. I know what some of you may be thinking but really how is internet different from the CB radios people used in the 70’s to hook up? its just a tool to expand your backyard and find that the grass is green all around. Anyways. Moving on. The actress in this play is named Queen, well actually Queen IV, and yes its not the most common name but she is nothing ordinary. Shes sweet and kind and actually cares more than she takes. This lil filipina sexy pants loves to chill with me on a regular basis and thats all I can really ask for, we have both been in some pretty rough relationships and because of this we are moving very slow. leaving out all the sexual things till we are ready. Technically not even dating, all i know is, before I knew this girl, there was a cloud over my heart but now… Im slowly remembering where my smile is.

 

Life for the next forceeable future

well im a hippie at heart I think, because im always thinking about all these life changing things, and while most of them havent changed at all, me wanting to go to england, me on my quest for love and me basicially confused with my love of art and my apathy toward it, I have however discovered that I love to cook. I knew this of course but never really got into it and never actually saw it as a profession. But working and having people compliment me on the meal and having others tell me that I should do this as a living may actually be the reason why I am seriously thinking about going to school for this food thing. Ill keep you posted to see if my ADD doesnt skip over this one.