like a star

So a lot has happened since the last update

 

So I engaged in my first friendly activity where I really felt like I was normal for once. On Saturday I was invited to the beach for a birthday party, It was a duel celebration, celebrating Queens friends, Irene and Brandon. I had met Irene previously at carribanna but this Brandon was a wild card. The day was tense from the get go.

I woke at 10 waiting to figure out what the plan was and after deciding to meet Queenie for noon, my dad decides that he wants to chill with my brother, after lots of hustle and bustle my bro is like he's not going and I'm off, I meet her and my dad meets us shortly after where I sold him my IPod Touch. Super paranoid for a while cuz it still had a lot of photos on it that I didn't necessarily want him to see, they weren't obscene just awkward that your dad is looking at your day to day moments.

So we got to the beach and at first it was weird but i soldiered through it, and I met a bunch of new people. Jakub while weird is weird in my way, his sarcasm matches mine almost exactly.

Sophie and her sister. cool, silent and mysterious, the older one is totally foxy but wears clothes that don't show off her goods in the slightest, I believe its a self esteem disorder. More tests required. The other one, younger more outgoing and foxy.

Brandon- This fellow is one I'm sure he doesn't like me, during the course of the night he got overly fresh with me and territorial, he asked how I know this lady and I subtley told him to fuck off. He kinda chilled after that

So beach was fun, played some volleyball and rocked Brandon, some random dudes came by later and played and I found out I'm great, that was fun and I hung out with people for a while like I was on TV which was cool.

After the beach everyone went out to find some food, and I found this nice little Asian place called Yummy food and Bubble tea, AND MAN WAS IT EVER. I had the general Tao cuz the general loves me and it was great and then the after party at a bar felt sexy, I downed a pitcher of gross tasting beer with my good buddy Jakub and found the worlds smallest bathroom, enough room for you to turnaround that's it. all in all a good night. Ill let you know how the rest of the weekend was later

I saw it ON YOUR KEYBOARD

 

So yah I'm sick again, at first it was just a pretend sickness to get out of work early and see my semi girlfriend semi I don't know what to call her, Queen, that was all fine and dandy until I saw her before she had to go to work, and wtf, I'm really sick now, at current time (12 36) I'm with the sniffles, not quite a full blown runny nose, but not quite cured just an annoyance in no mans land. Throat is sore but not as bad as yesterday and I have a bitch of a headache almost going to the land of hangover. This is life/ sadface :(

 

what else is new? well I feel like a total tool now that my sister is done high school and is looking to start something with her life, she was going to go to uni but decided that she would go back to high school to improve her marks before she becomes a doctor or some such, I really have to figure out what I'm doing in life before she figures it out lool

wounded

 

 

So wow, hes back. It seems like forever since i was on this thing, now its not that I dont love you all but rather that i didnt have anything to say and didnt thingk that the lot i had to say wasw reaad worthy. Now that im working im slightly more interesting but still its really just the polite ramblings of a little black boy.

 

So im going to take this like I take any problem: in steps. I dont know any other way but to break this all up into catagories. So without further shit talking lets get into the mix.

work with pay

well if you recall i was working with a buddy of mine. He got me a job when noone else was hiring. Fuck the recession and everything about it. but moving on, I found out that it wasnt the job for me. Its not like I dont appreciate the guesture but the whole chillin in a cubical talking to strangers about a life that I dont have quite yet was depressing to say the least, so a little after my first paycheque, I skipped town and went back to one of my older more trusted jobs, Delta bingo, It was like an old girlfriend waiting to see you again after years and still treating you well,

the only problem I had with it at first was the new establishment trying to force its ways on me, like the new supervisor trying to train me when I had already learned the same things she was showing me and not only that, I had learned them better. That took some getting used to, especially when I found out that she was only about 8 months older than me. But that came to an end quickly and from there the relationship became amazing again, the same old ladies , the same funny smell, and the same hillarious stories of deceit and betrayl, its better than a telenovella.

Relationships

Ok so we all know how the last one end…TERRIBLY. for a while there I was convinced that I was spoiled for women, I didnt want anything to do with them, not to say that I was gay but i just thought that I would be better off putting all of my time and energy into something that couldnt break my heart, the age old addage that nice guys finished last couldnt have been more truthful when it came to my case.

After much prodding by a friend of mine, I decided to try the online route for love. I know what some of you may be thinking but really how is internet different from the CB radios people used in the 70’s to hook up? its just a tool to expand your backyard and find that the grass is green all around. Anyways. Moving on. The actress in this play is named Queen, well actually Queen IV, and yes its not the most common name but she is nothing ordinary. Shes sweet and kind and actually cares more than she takes. This lil filipina sexy pants loves to chill with me on a regular basis and thats all I can really ask for, we have both been in some pretty rough relationships and because of this we are moving very slow. leaving out all the sexual things till we are ready. Technically not even dating, all i know is, before I knew this girl, there was a cloud over my heart but now… Im slowly remembering where my smile is.

 

Life for the next forceeable future

well im a hippie at heart I think, because im always thinking about all these life changing things, and while most of them havent changed at all, me wanting to go to england, me on my quest for love and me basicially confused with my love of art and my apathy toward it, I have however discovered that I love to cook. I knew this of course but never really got into it and never actually saw it as a profession. But working and having people compliment me on the meal and having others tell me that I should do this as a living may actually be the reason why I am seriously thinking about going to school for this food thing. Ill keep you posted to see if my ADD doesnt skip over this one.