Rock me sexy Jesus

So ive taken to watching countless movies and other shit all day while spending other free time waiting on Kimberly to grace me with her presence, yup that's my life, and I really am not enjoying it lol so Jesus if your listening, I need you to upgrade me, thanks that is all.

slow DANCING IN A BURNING ROOM

Is seven in the morning and im still up. This wouldn't be news worthy news if it wasn for the simple fact that I really do want to sleep. I know some would instantly say its cuz of stress or something, im looking at you Kimberly. But I feel fine for the most part. I just feel like I weigh three times my body.

 

Ive done all those tips and tricks to sleep and my body just said fuck you to all that shit. I should maybe have a drink... or five.

 

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Other news. I spent about 30 mins running around in an online game with a female character. I chose her cuz she looked cool, but guys are treating me different, someone gave me a lvl 10 orc slayer. ohh gamer nerds are sad. Im totally gonna end up being bad touched.

** there is no orc slayer, just funnier that way, I got sword of destruction.. ( see told you, less funny)

The new and the old

So its 7 in the morning and I'm sitting here wondering if I should really go to bed or not, and I'm sitting here also thinking about my life and where its heading.I have lots of dreams and goals and sometimes I feel like I'm drifting,

Today isnt one of them. I feel motivated to write and actually have news worth writing about. I have a new blog right here which I'm most likely going to use as a journal of sorts. Pretty much its something new and shiny that I will play with. So i guess that leaves this one for more important news and things I don't really feel comfortable telling the world.

Another thing. I'm probably going to just keep the journal open to people I love and trust, so ask if you want, but I'm positive that I will laugh in more than 88 percent of your faces.
that is all.

80th post

So seeing as this is the 80th time ive bitched about my life. I figured I would give you something different, so here it is, you will know 80 things about me that you already knew or is new! :)

1. I am 22 years old on the outside and 62 on the inside.

2.  I listen to absolutely everything under the sun.

3. I am an Internet pirate, I download absolutely everything, from music, to programs, to porn, to movies just about every, non illegal thing I can think of.

4. I have the tendency to see things that I cant explain. mostly people who I believe are ghosts.

5. I have dark brown eyes, although im convinced that they are red with black pupils.

6. I have been in love 4 times.

7. I am right handed but like to believe that I am ambidextrous.

8. Got into drawing when I first saw the Lion king.

9. I easily fall in love with the stories of other peoples lives.

10. I can sit down and play video games all day without sleep if the story keeps me interested.

11. I want to travel the world. I live to explore.

12. I only know of 2 movies in the history of movies that I hated: Disaster movie (of course) and one other called bulletproof monk.

13. One of my goals in life, is to go skydiving with my dad.

14, I was once fluent in french, and was learning Spanish, Japanese and Italian. I now speak an amalgam of broken  languages.

15. Im not afraid of heights, or even falling. Its the impact im most afraid of.

16. I often find myself feeling claustrophobic if I do the same thing too long.

17. I consider myself to be popular even tho I only count 4 people as my friends.

18. I lost my virginity on October 4th. when I was 19.

19. My favourite movies come at a three way tie between The breakfast club, Hook, with robin Williams and lastly, Lilo and Stitch.

20. I see through the eyes of a child. Everything is wonderful and new.

21, I love Candy, sour most definitely.

22. I don't believe in horoscopes but it feels good to have someone telling you things about your day.

23. I eat cookie dough raw on a regular basis.

24. Ive had many pets, but my favourite are a litter of kittens that were born under my bed.

25. I think I have fetish for vampires. I love everything about them.

26. Im concerned that everyone whom with I've have a romantic relationship with, are now pregnant or married to the next man they met.

27. Ive dated two girls in my life who ended up becoming lesbians. My name is Ross Gellar.

28. Im content to stay at home and do absolutely nothing .

29. I once sat outside and wished for a vampire to come and turn me into one of them.

30. I don't deal well with new people.

31. I am a selective vegetarian. I don't eat meat unless there's something really good around.

32. Im most afraid of abandonment.

33. I was born in Toronto, while everyone seems to assume I was born in Jamaica.

34. I have never been to Jamaica.

35. Im allergic to everything.

36. I was born two months premature, and was the size of my dads hand.

37. I hate all fruits except green apples and green grapes.

38, My dreadlocks, while cool looking, were the result of laziness. I didn't want to shave my head but I didn't want to do anything special,

39. I own an electric guitar that I got four years ago, I can only play "Mary had a little lamb" rock on!

40. I have moved over 18 times.

41. I LOVE riding horses, though being around them can cause me to die.

42. I can curl my tongue into a U.

43. I have plans to move to England stuck in my mind.

44. I once took apart my computer to see how it worked. Luckily, I was able to put it back together.

45. I owned a female ferret named Rufus, Named partly because of my grand father, but mostly because of a certain naked mole rat.

46. I had a brief rust coloured. Jerry curled phase.

47. I have scars covering my entire body resulting from fun things ive done as a child.

48. I have never been in a fight on my own. But been in two to protected my brother and sister respectively.

49. Had serious thoughts of becoming an actor growing up.

50. The first week of grade nine I was asked to dress up as a woman in drama class, at the end of it I fit the part so well that I was checked out by a guy in gr. 12 which was awkward enough. But than the fire alarm went off and I was made to walk out in the middle of the school in heels, a mini skirt and a face full of makeup.

51. Favourite colour is brown.

52, While I have been drunk infrequently, I have not smoked anything including weed.

53, I believe that my perfect animal would be a dog, they show you love without end.

54. I feel weird talking to animals like people, but I like seeing people do it ** not baby speech mind you.**

55. My music database is about 52 gigabytes , and ive been slimming it down.

56. If I could be any animal, I would be a black bear. They are just so powerful and pure.

57. Ive never broken a bone, other than when I was born and the doc broke both of my legs cuz they were growing wrong.

58, I love hospitals, Im not sure but the food and the beds and the smells might have something to do with it.

59. I used to give blood regularly, Im B negative.

60. My favourite alcoholic beverage is the tried and true: rum and coke.

61. Im not afraid of dying, just afraid to see what comes next.

62. I am in love with Billie holiday, Ella Fitzgerald, and the Ink Spots. ( read: old )

63, I can watch three movies apart from my top 3 over and over again. They are : sleepless in Seattle, Serendipity, and You've got mail.

64.  I have an OCD or something where if im eating something that is open, I have to continue to eat it until a. I get sick. or B. its all gone.

65. I love to swim but cant hold my breath long.

66. I used to have a love affair with coke, I would drink at least a litre a day.

67. No caffinated beverage affects me, I don't get jittery from caffeine. Its just flavoured water to me.

68. I have never had a dream in my life. or as others like to say, I dream but I don't remember.

69, have a firm believe that all or most religions are the same, like a game of broken telephone. Its like if you worship me, im not gonna care if you call me bob when my name is Cameron. so long as you believe. and I do believe.

70. From the age of ten, I dreamed of marriage and a family.

71. I had an older brother who died at birth a year before I was born, so technically im not the oldest in the family.

72, In an even greater technicality I have an older half sister but I don't count her because I have only seen her once on her last day in Ontario before she moved to Edmonton and got married.

73, I pride myself in being the fastest around, yet I raced my cousins in Trinidad and my top speed is their jogging speed.

74. I have a constant pain in my lower back,

75. once played poker for 19 hours straight and came out on top. ( real life. not online)

76. favourite food: lasagne made by my authentic Italian aunt.

77. I go in stages of being extremely cocky about my body to bouts of chronic insecurity.

78. My favourite song of the moment, is Maybe, by the ink spots. look it up

79. I was told I wasn't going to last more than 2 months when I was born and spent four months in an incubator before I could go home.

80. I almost killed my brother on two occasions. I was racing my brother when I was 8 and he was 6 down the halls to get to our apartment of the time and he was winning for the first time ever so I shoved him a bit, and he went out of control and crashed his head into the corner of a wall, split his head clean open. he's afraid of needles so he was burning through the painkillers that they put in his system so a bunch of nurses held him down while the doc sewed him up, that left him with a line in his head, then about a week later I tripped him and he landed head first on a glass. after those stitches came out he had a circle with a line perfectly down the middle, That has faded over time however, the line remains but the circle has faded except for the top so now he has a very distinct "T" shaped scar on his forehead.