like a star

So a lot has happened since the last update

 

So I engaged in my first friendly activity where I really felt like I was normal for once. On Saturday I was invited to the beach for a birthday party, It was a duel celebration, celebrating Queens friends, Irene and Brandon. I had met Irene previously at carribanna but this Brandon was a wild card. The day was tense from the get go.

I woke at 10 waiting to figure out what the plan was and after deciding to meet Queenie for noon, my dad decides that he wants to chill with my brother, after lots of hustle and bustle my bro is like he's not going and I'm off, I meet her and my dad meets us shortly after where I sold him my IPod Touch. Super paranoid for a while cuz it still had a lot of photos on it that I didn't necessarily want him to see, they weren't obscene just awkward that your dad is looking at your day to day moments.

So we got to the beach and at first it was weird but i soldiered through it, and I met a bunch of new people. Jakub while weird is weird in my way, his sarcasm matches mine almost exactly.

Sophie and her sister. cool, silent and mysterious, the older one is totally foxy but wears clothes that don't show off her goods in the slightest, I believe its a self esteem disorder. More tests required. The other one, younger more outgoing and foxy.

Brandon- This fellow is one I'm sure he doesn't like me, during the course of the night he got overly fresh with me and territorial, he asked how I know this lady and I subtley told him to fuck off. He kinda chilled after that

So beach was fun, played some volleyball and rocked Brandon, some random dudes came by later and played and I found out I'm great, that was fun and I hung out with people for a while like I was on TV which was cool.

After the beach everyone went out to find some food, and I found this nice little Asian place called Yummy food and Bubble tea, AND MAN WAS IT EVER. I had the general Tao cuz the general loves me and it was great and then the after party at a bar felt sexy, I downed a pitcher of gross tasting beer with my good buddy Jakub and found the worlds smallest bathroom, enough room for you to turnaround that's it. all in all a good night. Ill let you know how the rest of the weekend was later

I saw it ON YOUR KEYBOARD

 

So yah I'm sick again, at first it was just a pretend sickness to get out of work early and see my semi girlfriend semi I don't know what to call her, Queen, that was all fine and dandy until I saw her before she had to go to work, and wtf, I'm really sick now, at current time (12 36) I'm with the sniffles, not quite a full blown runny nose, but not quite cured just an annoyance in no mans land. Throat is sore but not as bad as yesterday and I have a bitch of a headache almost going to the land of hangover. This is life/ sadface :(

 

what else is new? well I feel like a total tool now that my sister is done high school and is looking to start something with her life, she was going to go to uni but decided that she would go back to high school to improve her marks before she becomes a doctor or some such, I really have to figure out what I'm doing in life before she figures it out lool

wounded

 

 

So wow, hes back. It seems like forever since i was on this thing, now its not that I dont love you all but rather that i didnt have anything to say and didnt thingk that the lot i had to say wasw reaad worthy. Now that im working im slightly more interesting but still its really just the polite ramblings of a little black boy.

 

So im going to take this like I take any problem: in steps. I dont know any other way but to break this all up into catagories. So without further shit talking lets get into the mix.

work with pay

well if you recall i was working with a buddy of mine. He got me a job when noone else was hiring. Fuck the recession and everything about it. but moving on, I found out that it wasnt the job for me. Its not like I dont appreciate the guesture but the whole chillin in a cubical talking to strangers about a life that I dont have quite yet was depressing to say the least, so a little after my first paycheque, I skipped town and went back to one of my older more trusted jobs, Delta bingo, It was like an old girlfriend waiting to see you again after years and still treating you well,

the only problem I had with it at first was the new establishment trying to force its ways on me, like the new supervisor trying to train me when I had already learned the same things she was showing me and not only that, I had learned them better. That took some getting used to, especially when I found out that she was only about 8 months older than me. But that came to an end quickly and from there the relationship became amazing again, the same old ladies , the same funny smell, and the same hillarious stories of deceit and betrayl, its better than a telenovella.

Relationships

Ok so we all know how the last one end…TERRIBLY. for a while there I was convinced that I was spoiled for women, I didnt want anything to do with them, not to say that I was gay but i just thought that I would be better off putting all of my time and energy into something that couldnt break my heart, the age old addage that nice guys finished last couldnt have been more truthful when it came to my case.

After much prodding by a friend of mine, I decided to try the online route for love. I know what some of you may be thinking but really how is internet different from the CB radios people used in the 70’s to hook up? its just a tool to expand your backyard and find that the grass is green all around. Anyways. Moving on. The actress in this play is named Queen, well actually Queen IV, and yes its not the most common name but she is nothing ordinary. Shes sweet and kind and actually cares more than she takes. This lil filipina sexy pants loves to chill with me on a regular basis and thats all I can really ask for, we have both been in some pretty rough relationships and because of this we are moving very slow. leaving out all the sexual things till we are ready. Technically not even dating, all i know is, before I knew this girl, there was a cloud over my heart but now… Im slowly remembering where my smile is.

 

Life for the next forceeable future

well im a hippie at heart I think, because im always thinking about all these life changing things, and while most of them havent changed at all, me wanting to go to england, me on my quest for love and me basicially confused with my love of art and my apathy toward it, I have however discovered that I love to cook. I knew this of course but never really got into it and never actually saw it as a profession. But working and having people compliment me on the meal and having others tell me that I should do this as a living may actually be the reason why I am seriously thinking about going to school for this food thing. Ill keep you posted to see if my ADD doesnt skip over this one.

Years ago my mother said to me, 'In this world, CAMERON, you must be oh so smart or oh so pleasant.' For years I was smart. I recommend pleasant.

 

so i've been up since like 8 wondering what the fuck is going on. my grandmother wakes both me an my brother up in a state of panic, yelling about window washers and that we need to close our windows. Mind you, the windows were open half and inch. and the window washers didn't come down to my  floor for about 2 more hours.

Speaking of my crazy grandmother.she walks up to me last night in a hushed tone and proceeds to tell me that me might be moving again into a house. OUR house with heavy implications on the our. She will know by Sunday if the crack deal is going down or not, but I'm left wondering…so really whose going to help us move this time. We have moved three times in the last 2 years, and over the time people just stop showing up. Its usually just one uncle brave enough to say fuck it. anyway all I'm saying is if we do move,. I'm getting my own room or else people will die. all around the world they will scream my name and die.

Some people say and others do

I have a friend who I havent really been a friend to. Nonetheless he still thinks that im cooler than Jesus and has been around for ages. He noticed my troubles and offered to get me a job at his work place. While this isnt the kind of work that im best suited to, I said yes all the same. I thought he was a shit talker like alot of people. You know the ones I mean, the kind that mean well, but never get around to do what they said they would.
Well not him. The next day. Less than 9 hours later he got me into a conversation with his boss and im just about to go to an interview. Even if I dont get the job, It still means more to me that he put himself out there and that I actually was able to have a friend like that. I thank him and wish him many great things.

new level of fail

Today, I dropped my keys. Not wanting to lean over and pick them up, I pointed at them and said "Accio." Then I realized I had tried to use a Harry Potter spell in real life and in public. FML

sweet i lagg

Akward Silences

testing testing one two three

mic check… so ive been working on how i can capture video and such cause i wanna be cool like Kimmy, and I finally got through with it, so I may be making a series of videoblogs, and then again I may get bored of it in a week, stay tuned.

 

Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there.

Sorry, I know its been a while, but really there just hasn't been alot of things going on in my life that are worth reading about. I have begun to read again. Mostly old books that I finished because I cant really get into newer books without knowing where to start looking.

Mostly been sitting here being a film connoisseur, pretty much any movie that you can think of ive seen, and im so bored that im gonna give you a little review on a few.

 

The curious tale of Benjamin button

well the story is as such where a dude is born and he is ugly as fuck. you later find out that he is really growing younger as he ages. He has adventures, mischievous and also has a love affair that at one point borders on child predator territory till you remember that he's only like 8 or something. All in all I really liked this movie, but it left me with a feeling similar to someone who I don't know walking up to me and yelling at me for 20 mins asking what the fuck am I doing with my life.

4/5

Taken

I have to say I was hesitant to watch this because of all the hype around it, even my mom who frequents china town for her video needs said this is "the sickest movie known to man and anyone who doesn't like it is a dumbass" way to go mom, she's down with the lingo.. she's hip. Anyway's this is about a muy pissed off father who's daughter is a lying skank and goes to France to follow U2 cuz the mom says its ok. She gets TAKEN and the father who is shindler from shindler's list goes apeshit in an all out pursuit. The coolest line which is also on the posters for this movie, "I dont know who you are,but if you dont let my daughter go. I will find you, I will kill you." pretty much sums this movie up. I can totally see myself doing this is someone stole my daughter. it would just be alot slower since I dont have a gun and I dont know kung fu

4.5/5

Slumdog Millionaire

Ok well I watched this movie before I knew how big a deal it was, so my mind isn't tainted by the douchebags yelling in my ear that this movie is godly and perfect beyond all reason. But even with that in mind, I gotta say that I really do love this film. Something about an underdog story has a place in my heart. I loved the characters and the cheesy/amazing Bollywood feel of it. PLUS it actually showed that alot of the world is assbackwards in its thinking without forcing the idea down your throat. Dev Petal is a pretty decent actor but since he's brown, this will probably be his last role.

5/5

Blindness

Take survivor, yeah that shitty show, and add aspects on I am legend and then throw a bag over your head so you cant see and you have this movie. Ok so the story goes like this, this asian guy goes blind for no reason and then it spreads to everyone , people freak out and lock the blindies into compound and let them deal with the shit storm themselves, Everything is good until one jackass starts to take the food and makes everyone trade shit for it, Funny thing is one of the people there can see everything going on. and she doesn't take your bullshit.For such a bad premise I have to say that I really enjoyed this movie. I mean sure, im think in that people who are actually blind hate this film because 1. they cant see it. and 2. it basically has the notion that once you go blind, you because an evil sonova bitch. I kinda laughed that the blindness was caused by an asian guy, it reminded me of SARS. just he was pretty, people who gave me SARS were not.

4/5

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well there you have it, this is what I have been wasting my time on , I have watched alot more movies and I dunno, maybe ill give some more summery's, maybe not, but till then, later days and GTFO of my face

Sometimes you need a feel good song to brighten your day

 

sex for your ears

 

these girls are my new loves. I will have an orgy of sound with them at any moment at any time. who doesnt like random parties for them selfs? right christina

pics of the mcmansion

 

serious what the fuck moment

 

So I was lying down getting ready to go to bed, and something told me to type in awesome news on Google. I woke out of my slumber and found this house as one of the links. I was initially going to post it because I thought the house looked well awesome. But then I start reading more about the homes and THEY ARE MADE BY TWO OF MY OLD FRIENDS FROM JOHN CABOT CATHOLIC SECONDARY SCHOOL.

"Is This The Most Awesome House in Toronto?

There's a real estate company called Prestige Living, founded earlier this year by 22-year-olds Philip Sywash and Casper Larski. As the company name suggests, it's an upscale-only kinda deal, with houses—well, mansions—starting at $1 million. A vast majority of the houses offered are classy and sophisticated, just what you'd expect and hope for on the outskirts of Toronto for the deep-pocketed."

 

Rock me sexy Jesus

So ive taken to watching countless movies and other shit all day while spending other free time waiting on Kimberly to grace me with her presence, yup that's my life, and I really am not enjoying it lol so Jesus if your listening, I need you to upgrade me, thanks that is all.

slow DANCING IN A BURNING ROOM

Is seven in the morning and im still up. This wouldn't be news worthy news if it wasn for the simple fact that I really do want to sleep. I know some would instantly say its cuz of stress or something, im looking at you Kimberly. But I feel fine for the most part. I just feel like I weigh three times my body.

 

Ive done all those tips and tricks to sleep and my body just said fuck you to all that shit. I should maybe have a drink... or five.

 

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Other news. I spent about 30 mins running around in an online game with a female character. I chose her cuz she looked cool, but guys are treating me different, someone gave me a lvl 10 orc slayer. ohh gamer nerds are sad. Im totally gonna end up being bad touched.

** there is no orc slayer, just funnier that way, I got sword of destruction.. ( see told you, less funny)

The new and the old

So its 7 in the morning and I'm sitting here wondering if I should really go to bed or not, and I'm sitting here also thinking about my life and where its heading.I have lots of dreams and goals and sometimes I feel like I'm drifting,

Today isnt one of them. I feel motivated to write and actually have news worth writing about. I have a new blog right here which I'm most likely going to use as a journal of sorts. Pretty much its something new and shiny that I will play with. So i guess that leaves this one for more important news and things I don't really feel comfortable telling the world.

Another thing. I'm probably going to just keep the journal open to people I love and trust, so ask if you want, but I'm positive that I will laugh in more than 88 percent of your faces.
that is all.

80th post

So seeing as this is the 80th time ive bitched about my life. I figured I would give you something different, so here it is, you will know 80 things about me that you already knew or is new! :)

1. I am 22 years old on the outside and 62 on the inside.

2.  I listen to absolutely everything under the sun.

3. I am an Internet pirate, I download absolutely everything, from music, to programs, to porn, to movies just about every, non illegal thing I can think of.

4. I have the tendency to see things that I cant explain. mostly people who I believe are ghosts.

5. I have dark brown eyes, although im convinced that they are red with black pupils.

6. I have been in love 4 times.

7. I am right handed but like to believe that I am ambidextrous.

8. Got into drawing when I first saw the Lion king.

9. I easily fall in love with the stories of other peoples lives.

10. I can sit down and play video games all day without sleep if the story keeps me interested.

11. I want to travel the world. I live to explore.

12. I only know of 2 movies in the history of movies that I hated: Disaster movie (of course) and one other called bulletproof monk.

13. One of my goals in life, is to go skydiving with my dad.

14, I was once fluent in french, and was learning Spanish, Japanese and Italian. I now speak an amalgam of broken  languages.

15. Im not afraid of heights, or even falling. Its the impact im most afraid of.

16. I often find myself feeling claustrophobic if I do the same thing too long.

17. I consider myself to be popular even tho I only count 4 people as my friends.

18. I lost my virginity on October 4th. when I was 19.

19. My favourite movies come at a three way tie between The breakfast club, Hook, with robin Williams and lastly, Lilo and Stitch.

20. I see through the eyes of a child. Everything is wonderful and new.

21, I love Candy, sour most definitely.

22. I don't believe in horoscopes but it feels good to have someone telling you things about your day.

23. I eat cookie dough raw on a regular basis.

24. Ive had many pets, but my favourite are a litter of kittens that were born under my bed.

25. I think I have fetish for vampires. I love everything about them.

26. Im concerned that everyone whom with I've have a romantic relationship with, are now pregnant or married to the next man they met.

27. Ive dated two girls in my life who ended up becoming lesbians. My name is Ross Gellar.

28. Im content to stay at home and do absolutely nothing .

29. I once sat outside and wished for a vampire to come and turn me into one of them.

30. I don't deal well with new people.

31. I am a selective vegetarian. I don't eat meat unless there's something really good around.

32. Im most afraid of abandonment.

33. I was born in Toronto, while everyone seems to assume I was born in Jamaica.

34. I have never been to Jamaica.

35. Im allergic to everything.

36. I was born two months premature, and was the size of my dads hand.

37. I hate all fruits except green apples and green grapes.

38, My dreadlocks, while cool looking, were the result of laziness. I didn't want to shave my head but I didn't want to do anything special,

39. I own an electric guitar that I got four years ago, I can only play "Mary had a little lamb" rock on!

40. I have moved over 18 times.

41. I LOVE riding horses, though being around them can cause me to die.

42. I can curl my tongue into a U.

43. I have plans to move to England stuck in my mind.

44. I once took apart my computer to see how it worked. Luckily, I was able to put it back together.

45. I owned a female ferret named Rufus, Named partly because of my grand father, but mostly because of a certain naked mole rat.

46. I had a brief rust coloured. Jerry curled phase.

47. I have scars covering my entire body resulting from fun things ive done as a child.

48. I have never been in a fight on my own. But been in two to protected my brother and sister respectively.

49. Had serious thoughts of becoming an actor growing up.

50. The first week of grade nine I was asked to dress up as a woman in drama class, at the end of it I fit the part so well that I was checked out by a guy in gr. 12 which was awkward enough. But than the fire alarm went off and I was made to walk out in the middle of the school in heels, a mini skirt and a face full of makeup.

51. Favourite colour is brown.

52, While I have been drunk infrequently, I have not smoked anything including weed.

53, I believe that my perfect animal would be a dog, they show you love without end.

54. I feel weird talking to animals like people, but I like seeing people do it ** not baby speech mind you.**

55. My music database is about 52 gigabytes , and ive been slimming it down.

56. If I could be any animal, I would be a black bear. They are just so powerful and pure.

57. Ive never broken a bone, other than when I was born and the doc broke both of my legs cuz they were growing wrong.

58, I love hospitals, Im not sure but the food and the beds and the smells might have something to do with it.

59. I used to give blood regularly, Im B negative.

60. My favourite alcoholic beverage is the tried and true: rum and coke.

61. Im not afraid of dying, just afraid to see what comes next.

62. I am in love with Billie holiday, Ella Fitzgerald, and the Ink Spots. ( read: old )

63, I can watch three movies apart from my top 3 over and over again. They are : sleepless in Seattle, Serendipity, and You've got mail.

64.  I have an OCD or something where if im eating something that is open, I have to continue to eat it until a. I get sick. or B. its all gone.

65. I love to swim but cant hold my breath long.

66. I used to have a love affair with coke, I would drink at least a litre a day.

67. No caffinated beverage affects me, I don't get jittery from caffeine. Its just flavoured water to me.

68. I have never had a dream in my life. or as others like to say, I dream but I don't remember.

69, have a firm believe that all or most religions are the same, like a game of broken telephone. Its like if you worship me, im not gonna care if you call me bob when my name is Cameron. so long as you believe. and I do believe.

70. From the age of ten, I dreamed of marriage and a family.

71. I had an older brother who died at birth a year before I was born, so technically im not the oldest in the family.

72, In an even greater technicality I have an older half sister but I don't count her because I have only seen her once on her last day in Ontario before she moved to Edmonton and got married.

73, I pride myself in being the fastest around, yet I raced my cousins in Trinidad and my top speed is their jogging speed.

74. I have a constant pain in my lower back,

75. once played poker for 19 hours straight and came out on top. ( real life. not online)

76. favourite food: lasagne made by my authentic Italian aunt.

77. I go in stages of being extremely cocky about my body to bouts of chronic insecurity.

78. My favourite song of the moment, is Maybe, by the ink spots. look it up

79. I was told I wasn't going to last more than 2 months when I was born and spent four months in an incubator before I could go home.

80. I almost killed my brother on two occasions. I was racing my brother when I was 8 and he was 6 down the halls to get to our apartment of the time and he was winning for the first time ever so I shoved him a bit, and he went out of control and crashed his head into the corner of a wall, split his head clean open. he's afraid of needles so he was burning through the painkillers that they put in his system so a bunch of nurses held him down while the doc sewed him up, that left him with a line in his head, then about a week later I tripped him and he landed head first on a glass. after those stitches came out he had a circle with a line perfectly down the middle, That has faded over time however, the line remains but the circle has faded except for the top so now he has a very distinct "T" shaped scar on his forehead.