This year of '08 has been wonderful for some and shitty for others, I'm not here to bitch and moan about my hardships when others don't have feet. I will say this, I realized that I cant be everything to everyone ever. I try an give and I cant do it, but yet I wouldn be satisfied doing anything else, So I am at an impasse. I don't have any idea as to what I should be doing. I cant be happy one way or the other and to use a brighter phrase up Shit creek with shitty paddles. I'm taking baby steps to becoming a man. I'm still trying to fix everyone but now im also going to include myself in the everyone facility. there are a few steps that need to be done in order for me to be on the way to being fit for living.They are paying off my bills, getting a car and moving out. These 3 things simple as they may are essential for me becoming a self sufficient man. I will do this.
side note: I spoke with a friend of mine who consisted to asking me a series of nonsensical questions and from the answers she got every nook and cranny of my personality including my foibles like hiding under the shroud of laughter, It was unnerving to have all my armour exposed like that but it also felt pretty nice. I think ill continue talking to her for a little while longer, sure I don't get any pills but still she's cheaper than a shrink
No comments:
Post a Comment