Motivation

Up until a few mins ago I hadn't really had anything to post on this blog but then I went on kims page and read it and smiled, and laughed and was in awe that she was so open about herself, so honest about all her flaws and things that make her interesting.

Later while having a conversation with her haha i pretended to have no idea about her blog and let her show it to me again, and once again I smiled , laughed and was in awe. I am attempting to be honest with myself just a little and intimate with you all by letting you in on a little bit what makes me, me.

Im far to negative for my own good but i put up a brave front to the point were i almost believe its true and i constantly second guess myself even if im sure im making the right decisions. I do things to others that i think is funny but if they did it to me i would probably swear my ass off or start a fight. In relationships i often find myself not calling you back not because i was busy but because im doing something more fun,I definatly have to work on that but im not a big phone person...unless my cell phone is working otherwise im stuck sitting in my grandmothers room as she breaths her hot breath on the back of my neck anxiously listening to a conversation with a potential carrier of her new grandson or daughter... oh god, aqkward moments ensue.

Im fairly judgemental on other peoples opinions and hold the opinions of people around me to a high regard though i would never have tell you. This year I am going to try to work on that especially expressing my emotions better,* emotions, yah right. thats gay. * But im not an all around jerk. Hell I can even be occationally nice but i expect the same in return or else wow, haha im a bitch. A bitch who will be a bitch long after your dead.

sarcasm is my greatest weapon, most people dont get it which i find hillarious. It can be a yes when i really want to say no. its your friend, its your lover its your dad its your mom. Sarcasm is everything and nothing. It simply has the power to remove me from the asshole that noone likes. Sarcasm makes me look a whole lot better and its not a lie in the slighest.
-Sincerly yours, a secretly horrible person lol